Ah yes, I've been slacking on my blog posting, yet again. Perhaps it's due to a general lack of interesting events in my life over the past month, but it's probably more likely I've been weathering a funk of the quarter-life crisis kind.

Ok, so crisis is a bit of an overstatement...maybe quarter-life wrestling match is more accurate. I wrestle with whether or not I should try and apply grad schools for next year; which jobs to apply to that will best leave my future plans open, while contributing to them at the same time; and then with myself for getting so caught up in the theoretical and failing to put any of it into practice. I think my friend Rebecca put it best when she said (or rather typed, on gmail chat), "if you're too worried about aligning the present with some unknown future, you risk losing appreciation for the here and now, i think". Fantastic insight. While that may seem obvious, it really helps to hear (or rather read) it. I know that it's important to keep future goals in mind, to have goals to work towards period. But, there's a fine line between living for some vague point in the future and living for what's here and now while keeping the future in mind. One involves actually living, while the other throws you into a dizzying circular rut.

It's kind of like when you're outside at night and you look up at the stars, and try and spin around while focusing on one point of light. It's fun, and can be kind of exhilarating holding onto that single star, but it always better when you fall to the ground. On your back you have the entire night sky stretched before you and you can take in as many stars as you'd like, from constellations to galaxies - including that single star. You're simultaneously more grounded and have a greater perspective, which ultimately (I suppose) makes for a richer, and more meaningful experience.